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#81731 - 09/29/03 08:40 PM I hate you
crisispoint Offline
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Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts
I Hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

Because you taught me that violence was love.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

Because you hurt me while saying it was normal.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

Because you made me want to die.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you because you made me hate myself.

I am a hypocrite because I tell everyone they'll be okay when I feel like I'm drowning.

Scot

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#81732 - 09/30/03 09:53 AM Re: I hate you
outis Offline
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Registered: 02/27/03
Posts: 2260
Loc: Maryland USA
Scot,

You're telling it like it is, aren't you? The strongest emotions seem to need the fewest words, or words are simply inadequate for them.
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I am a hypocrite because I tell everyone they'll be okay when I feel like I'm drowning.
Man, do I know that feeling. But in better moments I realize that I'm not a hypocrite. I'm telling myself the things I tell someone else because I, too, need to hear them, over and over. I need to counteract the messages (from the All Lies... post , from your lines "Because..." above, and so on) that came from the sick minds that abused me.

Thanks for sharing this. It says a lot of things that I didn't quite realize I needed to say.

Joe

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"Telemachos, your guest is no discredit to you. I wasted no time in stringing the bow, and I did not miss the mark. My strength is yet unbroken…"—The Odyssey, translated by W.H.D. Rouse

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#81733 - 09/30/03 08:25 PM Re: I hate you
The Dean Offline
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Registered: 07/15/02
Posts: 2080
Loc: Milwaukee, WI
Hey Scot! You aren't drowning, because you found this big, solid, safely floating raft to go with the flow on.

As you move a long in this difficult work of rejecting the harm done to us when we were kids, you will come to love yourself. Your brothers already do love you, because this brotherhood leads to a lot of love in action.

Bob

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If we do not live what we believe, then we will begin to believe what we live.

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