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#80854 - 10/02/02 03:46 AM a dream i had
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Registered: 04/09/01
Posts: 117
Loc: California
desperately running towards the light at the end of my tunnel. it seems so far away. looking back i see only darkness. i wonder what the light will feel like.

i had a dream i killed myself, with lots and lots of pills.
i've dreamt i've killed myself before, but this one gave me chills.
the other deaths were quick and fun, but this wore patience thin.
some mouthfuls had too many pills, i'd choke, my head would spin.
my fear was that i would pass out, and wake up feeling sick.
i swallowed quicker than before, i knew speed was the trick.
i ran outside to not be found, i hid behind a tree.
if i just swallowed one more pill, beyond their help i'd be.
but i just sat there motionless, my chance - it came and went
and then i guess i just awoke, i wonder what it meant

.

if anyone's worried, don't be. i'm stayin away from the light. just wishin i didn't have reasons to.

- John_

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In the name of the Anger, and of the Sadness, and of the Unholy Fear. Amen.

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#80855 - 10/03/02 10:47 AM Re: a dream i had
SoCalJohn Offline
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Registered: 05/18/01
Posts: 510
Loc: Los Angeles, California
[john] hugs john

i wish i could find the magic pill, the one that makes it all ok,, hang in there ok?

John

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I asked him about this law he spoke of, he said,,, *watch* he then asked the others to share about their lives,,, the others talked of how things were for them, how things worked in their lives,,, and as they believed, it was so.

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#441053 - 07/16/13 02:37 PM Re: a dream i had [Re: Harry]
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Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 2972
Loc: O Kanada
very scary nightmarey.
the emotions are too familiar to me.

it is likely the "light" feels all right,
but I plan to stay,
at least one more day.
sometimes,
i wish i could find the magic bullet,
the one that makes it all go away.

no matter how much it hurts.
i know it can get worse.

hope you dreams are getting more pleasant.
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Victor|Victim

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