here is a poem joker wrote the 1st day he was in the hospital.
I tried to run
you always find me
I tried to hide
you always seek
I tried to be good
you always beat me
I tried to hate you
you always "loved" me
I tried not to cry
you just hit harder
I tried to enjoy it
you always told me i did
I tried to die
but you wouldn't let me
I treid to escape
but you always follow
I tried to sleep
your always there
here's another one : failure
noone wanted me at birth
i learned to walk late
my words never came out right
i would potty in my pants
i could never stay on a bike
i couldnt through a ball
i couldn't run all the bases
i would wet the bed
i got bad grades
i did drugs
i would steal from you
i never went to prom
I'm a failure
But there is one thing i can do
swallow it all
but im still a failure
Boys shouldn't do that
ok so i am a failure.
rain:
rain lean's everything
everything but me
rain helps the earth grow
rain brings hope
rain brings joy
rain brins life
rain brings rainbows
for everyone but me
for me there is no hope
for me there is no joy
for me the rain is just rain
not tears from heaven
just drops of water
to make more mud
just for me more mud
silent screams:
burry your face in the pillow
silent scream
someone asks "whats wrong"
silent screams
you blend with the crowd
silent screams
you go through your day
silent screams
you pretend nothing is wrong
silent screams
you scream "HELP ME"
SILENTLY
DISAPPOINTMENT:
Im sorry im a disappointment
im sorry i cant do anything right
im sorry i live
im sorry i dont die
im sorry , i realy do try
im sorry my life is a disappointment to you
im sorry im not the son you hoped
im sorry im a son , not a daughter
im sorry everything i do is a disappointment
just listen:
noone hears my cry
noone hears me scream
noone knows the pain i carry
noone see's me reach out
noone reaches out to me
noone hears my words
noone see's the broken heart
noone cares to listen
noone
ok last one for tonight
the flight:
the soul fly's free
free'er thenthe mind
the soul longs to believe
more than the mind
the soul cry's out in pain
the mind remains quiet
the soul morn's the child's loss of innoccenece
the mind closes off from the soul
the soul cry's out to GOD
the mind closes his ears
the soul knows who the child realy is
the mind tells him he's something he's not
the soul knows the trueth
the mind lies to the child
the child forgets the soul
the mind has control
at last
he wrote all of these in one day in just a few hours...there are several more, but not enough time to post them. hope you like them. just wnted to continue sharing his thougths and poems with you.
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