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#80308 - 04/21/05 11:53 PM Angry? Triggers, I think...at least for me
Bobby Offline
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Registered: 12/01/04
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Loc: Arizona
Angry?
Are you kidding?
Me?
Angry?
At who?
At what?

Oh, that.

No, no, not angry.
Sad, maybe
Hurt
Dejected

Angry?

No, I don't think so.

Should I be?
Because he put his penis inside me?
Angry?
Because I was like four years old?
Angry?
Because he was my dad and I loved him and would have given anything, gave everything, so he would love me.
Angry?

No.

Never.

Dead.

He took it all, all I had to give, and left me with nothing.

Angry?

If only...if only...
I could crawl off this floor and stand up....
Left me laying
Beside the bed......
Gone
Alone
Dark
Empty

Angry?

Nothing..nothing..nothing

left

to give


the son-of-a-bitch...........

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#80309 - 04/22/05 02:26 AM Re: Angry? Triggers, I think...at least for me
LostinPA Offline
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Registered: 04/04/05
Posts: 120
Loc: Lancaster, PA
Bobby,
That was so painfully familiar. Wow such heartache. Anger/death are not something easy to reconcile when the abuse is family is it?
Tough stuff indeed.
Ric

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