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#80244 - 04/12/05 03:22 PM You Bastard
michael Joseph Offline
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Registered: 03/11/01
Posts: 2719
Loc: Virginia
You Bastard

Fucking touch me,
I dare you.
Fucking ruin my life,
You can only fucking try.

But I won't be ruined,
Just fucked up.
Fuck you for
Fucking up my life.

I wish your body could be
ripped apart by
wild fucking dogs.
Starting by ripping off
your fucking genitals.

I want your fucking
balls on a platter.
I want you to fucking die.

Take the pain you gave me,
and suck it down your throat.
You fucking Bastard.
Fucking leave my body alone.

By M. Joseph

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#80245 - 04/12/05 04:54 PM Re: You Bastard
LostinPA Offline
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Registered: 04/04/05
Posts: 120
Loc: Lancaster, PA
WOW That was intense. I liked the power you gave back to you. Good job.

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#80246 - 10/08/05 06:54 AM Re: You Bastard
michael Joseph Offline
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Loc: Virginia
anger is a good thing, and years later this poem still does it for me.

the bastard moved to FL
I will make sure he is not hurting kids now

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#80247 - 10/08/05 12:05 PM Re: You Bastard
delta.tetra Offline
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Registered: 04/17/05
Posts: 108
Loc: Netherlands
michael Joseph

thanks for your poem.

It took me right back to the night I pushed my father out of the bathroom for the first and last time so he couldn't get his hands on me in the bath. I was so furious and slippery and unstoppable as we wrestled for control. But I won! I fucking WON!


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#80248 - 10/10/05 05:57 AM Re: You Bastard
Ivanhoe Offline
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Registered: 03/19/03
Posts: 1907
Wow, you guys got my emotions going...
I know of someone else who abused boys in Kalamazoo, he isn't a baseball coach, is he?

David

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#80249 - 02/26/06 06:51 AM Re: You Bastard
michael Joseph Offline
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Posts: 2719
Loc: Virginia
here is is John, be gentle w yourself

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#80250 - 05/15/06 04:46 PM Re: You Bastard
michael Joseph Offline
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Loc: Virginia
Anger is needed to get through this.

Esp when you tend to hold it in cuz you are scared

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#80251 - 05/26/06 06:58 AM Re: You Bastard
timsutt67 Offline
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Registered: 03/03/06
Posts: 19
Loc: Florida
This is exactly how I feel. I try to express it in this way and others tell me "don't be so hateful/negative/vengeful. I say embrace your hatred and anger. It will help you heal once you explore the depths of your hatred. Hate is a natural emotion, as long as it doesn't consume you.

Thanks for allowing me to embrace my hatred without guilt.

Fuck the bastard, I hope the lousy motherfucker dies a horrible, painful death from bone cancer before whatever god there is throws him into hell for an eternity of pain.

I hate him.

Hate. Him.


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#80252 - 05/26/06 07:53 PM Re: You Bastard
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Tim,

Good for you. Others tell you "don't be so negative"? Oh really? Here's a two-word reply for that one: "Fuck off."

You are right. These are YOUR feelings. They have to be owned and embraced by you before you can do anything with them and move on.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
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#80253 - 05/26/06 07:57 PM Re: You Bastard
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Michael,

I don't want to corner you in any way, but I am curious. What's your take on your poem now? Do you still feel the same anger? If so, does that anger still help you?

Or have you moved on. I just ask because of the many very positive changes that have occurred in your life since then.

Just an invitation to comment, but give it a miss if you don't feel you want to respond.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
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