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#80111 - 03/11/05 10:55 PM First Time (STRONG TRIGGERS!)
crisispoint Offline
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Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts
First Time


Lips on mine,
A child's mouth.
Don't know what
To do.

Grownup lips
Against mine.
Don't know what
To do.

Arms pulling me
Tight against him
Don't know what
To do.

Hand reaches under
My clothes.
Don't know what
To do.

Heart pounding
So afraid.
Don't know what
To do.

Tongue in my
Mouth, so weird.
Don't know what
To do.

Want to scream.
Can't scream.
Don't know what
To do.

Between my legs,
My sex betrays me.
Don't know what
To do.

Little boy.
So confused.
Don't know what
To do.

Decades later,
He's still with me
And I don't know what
To do.


Nightmares and memories suck. \:\(

Scot

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#80112 - 04/05/05 07:41 AM Re: First Time (STRONG TRIGGERS!)
Peaceful Offline
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Registered: 04/02/05
Posts: 23
Pretty powerful. "Don't know what to do" captures my experience of SA.


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