I've heard this same story from other singles. You're certainly not alone in how you feel. There is, of course, nothing I can do to help aleviate this need you have, but I do consider you to be my friend. Always will.
Thanks for this. Thanks for being willing to share how you feel. Your poem causes me to stop and consider folk in my own congregation who may be feeling quite the same as yourself.
Lots of love,
“Life’s journey is not to arrive at the grave safely in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting ‘Holy ____…! What a ride!’” ~Hunter S. Thompson