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#79627 - 08/14/06 02:43 PM Just a quickie
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
I lay there on the cold hard floor, taste dirt and blood in my mouth.
I see him coming closer…
please God, don't let him hurt me anymore
What have I done to deserve something like this?
I try hard to think but I do not know
Is it because I disobeyed my mother?
No, I don't think so.
He stands over me looking down , a look that says "You know what happens now".
I turn away so I can't look into his face and I wonder if his kicks and punches are going to kill me this time, and I wonder if anyone knows how brave I am for taking my moms place.
The pain is so hard to take and I’m so little and his hands are so big…
I start to scream but his hand covers my face, I fight back although he is way stronger then I am. I know that I at least have to try… so through my tears I beg him to stop. Tell him I’ll be good, I’m sorry for whatever I did daddy I promise I won’t do it again I promise I’ll be good daddy I… He tells me to just lie still and shut up.
I tell him it hurts but he doesn’t hear me or care…
He says that I get what I deserve.
I tell him that I’m sorry and that I love him, he only laughs and spits booze on me and pulls off his belt. So defeated I close my eyes and wonder how beautiful the stars are tonight… wishing with all my heart that I could just see their light.


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#79628 - 08/14/06 07:01 PM Re: Just a quickie
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Jay,

Quote:
please God, don't let him hurt me anymore
What have I done to deserve something like this?
Nothing.

Absolutely nothing.

Go out this evening and have a look at those stars you wished you could see as a boy. Their beauty is there for you to see tonight and every night now. He can't hurt you anymore.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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#79629 - 08/14/06 07:22 PM Re: Just a quickie
Jaysen Offline
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Registered: 06/14/06
Posts: 680
well you just made me cry you bastard


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#79630 - 08/14/06 08:17 PM Re: Just a quickie
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA
Jay,

Sorry if I upset you. But sometimes we have things to cry about, don't we? That feeling needs to come out too, just like all the rest.

Much love,
Larry

_________________________
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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