I OFTEN WONDER IF YOU WERE TO DIE WOULD I SHED A TEAR.

I'D LOVE TO THINK I WOULD NOT ,BUT
REALITY SET IN AND I BELIEVE I WOULD.

NOT BECAUSE I'D MISS YOU OR FEEL BAD ABOUT YOU HAVING DIED .

I WOULD CRY BECAUSE I HAD LOST A CHANCE TO ASK
YOU AGAIN WHY OR TO TELL YOU THAT I'D LIKE TO
FORGIVE AND FORGET YOU DID THIS TO ME.

BUT I JUST CANT BE THAT KIND OF A MAN.

I USE TO WANT YOU TO KNOW IN YOUR MIND BODY AND SOUL.

WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO LIVE FEELING AS I DO
EVERY SINGLE DAY .

ALWAYS WONDERING IF IT WILL EVERY GO AWAY AND ALL THE TIME BELIEVING IT WON'T.

I DONT WANT THAT ANYMORE FOR IF I DID I BE JUST

LIKE YOU AND YOU WILL NEVER HAVE THE PLEASURE OF

THAT

snoopy,

Welcome to Male Survivor. That's a powerful way to introduce yourself! I think all the guys here will feel for your every word and support how you feel. You aren't alone.

Find your own pace for easing into the site, and post or comment as you feel you can. You are very welcome here and I hope the site will help you deal with the issues you talk about in your poem.

Much love,
Larry

Snoopy

I can relate,,,,,,,,,,,,as many will

thanks for the words

words that are part of me and others here

stand tall and proud because you and I and the rest of us here did nothing wrong concerning abuse, wrong was done to us

you take great care of yourself, I look forward to more posts from you,,,,,,,,,,,you have a great day ok !!!!

Hey Snoops,

Welcome, and thanks for that powerful post. I don't know how many times I've felt that way myself.

I hope you find what you are looking for here, Bro. I've found a place where I can say what's on my mind and feel safe having said it. I've found a place where the guys are caring and understanding and can relate to what I've been through because they understand the pain. It's so unfortunate that any of us need this place, but I'm so glad it's here.

Again, welcome.

Lots of love,

John