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#79205 - 08/13/04 04:23 PM God'sJudgment (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!)
crisispoint Offline
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Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts
God's Judgment


As in any relationship,
There can be room for anger
As well as love.
And now I'm angry with You, Lord.
I go through this from time to time.
I know You love me, and You've given
Me so much. Strength, intellect, humor.
One thing not many people have,
A talk with You,
Twice!,
You've given me.
Words, and a purpose.
I'm grateful, Lord, don't think I'm not.
But rather than the words, I'd have liked
That You stopped what happened to me,
The hurt it caused,
When I was too young to know better.
And not just for me, God,
But for the millions in Stalin's Russia,
Hitler's Germany, Pol Pot's Cambodia,
The thousands when the sky fell
One September morning,
The children all over the world.
Where were You, God, when the world
Stopped turning for us?
I've given you food, clothing, comfort.
I've taken your beatings, carried your cross,
Accepted the nails on a Golgotha not
Of my own choosing.
Where were You, Lord?
What part of Your "plan" accepts evil
Done to innocents who don't deserve it?
I'm not Job, Lord, I won't accept Your
Ageless wisdom as a defense, excuse.
You say You're a being of love.
Where were You when "love" was perverted,
"Patriotism" was poisoned, "Devotion" a weapon?
For isn't there a contract between us and You?
You are our God, but we are Your people.
If You can't hold up Your end,
Why should we, Lord?
As surely as I will face Your judgment,
There will be an account of You, too.
And while I know that it will be true,
Somehow, the "plan" doesn't seem
Worth the cost to me right now.


I will continue to love and serve Him, but right now I'm just too angry to accept Him blindly.

\:\(

Scot

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#79206 - 08/13/04 05:53 PM Re: God'sJudgment (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!)
Ivanhoe Offline
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Registered: 03/19/03
Posts: 1907
It really doesn't seem worth it, does it? You lay it out so convincingly with the right examples of the innocents affected by His love. Whose grand scheme is this, anyway? Are we just some experiment gone awry? Someone said once, that is when we lift our fist to God that the real conversation…prayer…begins.
Don’t you want to just say, “Enough, I’ve had enough!! We’ve have enough!!”
What’s the name of that book? “When good things happen to bad people.” Or, “When the bad guy wins.”
All I know sometimes is the goodness found here. Heaven knows that I’ve written most folks off as too ignorant or stupid to understand any of this. But you guys, you guys are the best thing that’s happened to me. You write incredible poetry of events that happened to me. You write incredible posts to one another of great care and concern. You act like the friends that I’ve always wanted to have. You act like Raymond, whom I had to leave when I was 8, when we moved.
I hear you, Scot…I think that I’ll leave heaven and earth to God for a while and concentrate on you guys, men I’m proud to call brothers.

Love,

David……………

My screen just went blank for a moment, do you think that it was a sign? Naw, I just hit the wrong key is all.

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#79207 - 08/14/04 05:52 PM Re: God'sJudgment (POSSIBLE TRIGGERS!)
reality2k4 Offline
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Registered: 07/06/04
Posts: 6838
Loc: Stuck between water, air, and ...
Scot

I read through this and there is so much hurt, it is the same for all who've beem there, we are all children of God, he gave us commandments, he gave us all free will, if his commandments are twisted by individuals or Governments of Countries, then they mean absolutely nothing.

I constantly questioned God about why me, why this, why, why, why.

The only reason I am here is because God protected me and kept me here, just like you, others' sadly never make it this far, for those I really grieve.

It sure is a hard World to live in, even more so with all the extra baggage to weigh you down, I see kids playing and think, hope you don't fall victim, it can be so really sad.

I would love to live in a World where kids can be safe, no 8ft security fences around schools, no need to chaperone kids to school, wouldn't it be nice if kids could feel safe wherever they went, and be able to trust each and every adult as their protector.

I am proud to have met you

ste

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