Trust in others is very hard for me to give too and I hate it when people complement me, I just don't want believe it. I've met some of the guys from this site in person and they have all been without exception supportive and honest and caring people.
Please keep posting, keep reaching out, keep trying, it does get better, it does help.
Take good care of yourself,
I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.
Kurt Vonnegut (1922-2007)