He's going to bed.
I know that must sound strange to you,
But my inner child is going to bed.
After fifty-five years of sitting up, and waiting for his father to come back
After fifty-five years peering from his closet, full of fear
After fifty-five years of being on complete alert twenty-four hours a day
After all of that.....
The kid is going to bed!
I can feel it.
Don't ask me how
I can just feel it
I can feel him getting ready to lay down
To rest
To sleep!
Relaxing
Climbing into bed
Smiling
Pulling up the covers
Holding close his teddy bear
After fifty-five years, he is closing his eyes
And trusting me enough to go to sleep
Oh, God, I hope it lasts
For, as he climbed into that bed and closed his eyes,
I felt at last that we were one
I felt at last the connection that we all seek
That I had reached him
Finally
That we could do that
Join as one
Be
Relax together
Smile inside
And trust the world enough to sleep
That we could do that is so amazing
There are no words....none
I love you, kid
And am so happy that at last you feel your world is safe enough to rest
And, just as soon as you're asleep
And I have kissed you gently on the cheek "good night"
I'll lay down there beside you
Hold you in my arms
And please, God, find a bit of rest myself.
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I'm healing now, and I wasn't sure I would.