I just want to say that I hope I do not brack any of the rules by posting this hear and I really hope I do not hurt anyone by it. This poem has alot of things in it that can be very triggering so please before you read it make sure you are in a good spot mentally.
I am not really sure why I am posting this poem I have not shown many people my work so this is really a leap for me. I hope you enjoy it and depending on the responce I get I will post more of my work if you would like to read it. I appreciate all or your time and look forward to see what you think. I hope it will someone through there difficult times. Here is the poem.
The Steaming Crystal Water
I immerse my body into the steaming crystal water, with a frantic hope to become clean.
My naked body lies there paralyzed by the terrifying shock of that last destroying touch.
Staring faceless with empty emotion I slowly reach for what I hope will mend my bleeding heart.
Panic sets in.
Tears fill my shattered spirit and poor down my cheek.
“God please, I just want to be clean.”
I embrace the soap and hold it close as if it were my long lost salvation sent from God.
Shaking because of echoing memories I wipe the soap on my skin, searching frantically for the cure that I fear does not exist.
“Why God, why”
“How could I have let this happen, I hate myself, let me out of this horrible body!!!”
“All I need is to be clean, why can’t I become clean?”
“Please get off me, get out of me, I do not want this poisoning contamination.
I hate, I hate.
Drowning, dying through the reality,
The water stays crystal,
Exhaustion takes over as my body becomes limp; the soap drops, sinking to the bottom of the tub. Staring at my reflection the abuse has changed, I feel deleted and shattered with nothing to gain. The clean water lies still and mocks my poisoned flesh; while I lay exhausted in the steaming crystal water; of satins taunting power.
Thanks for reading I hope you liked it please let me know what you think. Thanks again your friend malidin.
Mother of the kingdom of silence I have obeyed you long enough!!!