It hurts tonight, God
And I don't know why
Why does it hurt sometimes?
Why does it hurt from down inside someplace I can't even get to
And how do I know it comes from this?
The pain I guess
It always feels the same
This dull sort of ache
A general feeling of despair
Kind of like I want to run, you know?
But don't know where
Don't know where it would be better
But want to run from the feeling
When I'm like this,I won't let myself think
Won't let myself go there to see what's causing it
Don't want to know
Don't want to feel
So afraid of what it is
So I keep it down there
Keep it in the pit of me
But it radiates out into the rest of me
And I hurt anyway
So, what's the use?
It'll be gone tomorrow, Lord
And doesn't come as often as it used to
But it hurts
A gnawing kind of hurt
Don't need help,really
Just needed to say it
Just needed to talk to you
To tell you that it hurt all day today
And I wanted to run away
But I didn't
I stayed
It'll be better tomorrow
But right now
Right now, it really hurts

Bobby, I am right there with you. It hurts God. The only way to is through. To get to the light i have to move through the darkness. I believe it will get better, for me and you too. light and love,Sis

Bobby,

That's an amazing image of that gnawing, lost, despairing feeling. Thanks so much for putting it into words in your own inimitable way.

Much love,
Larry