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#78318 - 04/03/06 03:08 PM My weird dream
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I have some real weird dreams.

I was dreaming a safe dream which somehow found me
alongside a bridge over a canal and I saw this
guy feeding a horse on the other side.

I swung on this rope to get to the other side, but the rope
was just too short to make it to the other side.
There was a shelf of boxes dvd movies, and the theme
was all about stuff I dont like, hitler and wars etc.

Some were still in post packets, I left and found myself
in a bar were the guys said the stuff belongs to bruno.
I asked who bruno was?
They said nobody touches brunos' stuff.

Just then bruno walks in, and we instantly made friends.
I left the scene apparently after leaving a radio and babies
pushchair.

I thought!
Its a long way home and my legs are so tired.
I thought about the canal walkway, then thought
the road was quiet and straighter to get home.
I felt like I was just sliding along the road
feeling totally calm.

Soon after I got home, this guy turns up in a delivery
truck with the radio and buggy, he said the postcode
was written on it.
He was a real nice guy, smiling like he cared.

I thought how kind for him to do that, I had forgotten
that I even left them behind.
I think he said he did it because I did not touch brunos'
stuff, so I told him I never take things that arent mine.

He told me that he would love me to visit that bar again,
I said, yeah, sure thing, I cant wait.

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That dream was so vivid, and when I get this type of
dream it tends to be saying things to me.
I can make sense of some but not all of it.
Maybe it is how I just want life to be right now.

The only thing I can tell you, is that it would have
beem no good crossing the bridge to the horse.
I was I think a boy swinging to the other side, to
make sure the horse is safe.

I do have the weirdest dreams, but this one was very
calming,

ste

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#78319 - 04/03/06 05:55 PM Re: My weird dream
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Dear ste, I am happy you have found your restive zone. Like you said if you care for others, you get cared for> Life always IS a full circle.
\:\)

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#78320 - 04/04/06 01:12 AM Re: My weird dream
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Ste,

We so often have dreams that are terrifying and upsetting in other ways, so it's good to have a few like this in our memory as well. It sounds like you are in a good place today.

Much love,
Larry

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#78321 - 04/06/06 10:17 PM Re: My weird dream
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I guess I always am the horse in the story.
Protecting the horse is always his priority in his mind.

The horse just wants to be strong and free, and maybe little ste rides the horse that he always dreamed of owning.

One day, I wish to own my own horse, and be there for him or her, who knows,

ste

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#78322 - 04/25/06 09:35 PM Re: My weird dream
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I had a safe dream where I felt distanced between three different places, each one I suppose felt so close to being at one with what I wanted my life to be.

The really distinct one was a boy in total abandon sleeping with his teddy.
So, I guess that was the goal of my dream, that this was the one thing I always really did want.

These are bitty dreams, so no way can I say it is part of my life right now, but rather what he would like it to be.

I guess most of my dreams are based on bridges, water, or locked rooms, so I wonder which dream means the most.

Guess I want to move out of the locked room, walk over the water and say Hi to the little boy who is me ;\)

ste

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#78323 - 04/26/06 07:03 PM Re: My weird dream
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I see these dreams as harbingers of the peace and abandon that is about to descend in your life, so go a step ahead and behave as if its arrived already!

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#78324 - 04/26/06 09:34 PM Re: My weird dream
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I think it is more likely the little boy is still craving to be in the sum of his dreams.
I guess I wondered as a boy, why all of his dreams turned to nightmares.

It is the reverse of Midas touch, everything he touches turns to sh*t.
My dreams tend to be fragments, or shards of dreams that dont mean anything other than who I really am.

As a child, I always thot! Why? Can nobody see me, they only see the mask that I show them.
Even when I am hurting I mask it out, numb it, and just go along with it.

Little ste just gets so pissed off sometimes with society who dont give a sh*t,

ste

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#78325 - 04/29/06 09:58 PM Re: My weird dream
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I had this weird dream of somebody, guess it may have been a guy.
And I heated some pies in the oven.

I said to this visitor, here is your pie, to which he said, I want the pie you are eating.
I asked him why! Because it must be better than the one you gave me.

I said NO, I gave you the best one, because you are my guest, but you doubt my friendship over a simple thing as a meal.

He so much apologised about it, but just went the other way as I awoke,

ste

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#78326 - 04/30/06 06:37 PM Re: My weird dream
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Ste,

I remember that feeling you talk about, the feeling that no one can "see". I used to sit at the dinner table looking around at my family wondering how it could be that no one could "see" what was happening to me.

You are so right: the effects of that are devastating.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
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#78327 - 05/08/06 10:26 PM Re: My weird dream
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Larry, spot on.
The boy cant see.

He cannot breathe.
Choked in emotions that he
can never leave.

Why me! Screams the inner child.
So loud he cried in his darkness and dreams.

Nobody could witness the inner child screams.
Screams of panic and despair, a silent witness, never there.

How could they,

ste

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#78328 - 05/09/06 03:44 PM Re: My weird dream
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Ste,

On another thread someone is talking about that strange and very uncomfortable feeling a survivor gets in his gut sometimes. I was trying to describe how I personally felt and didn't do very well.

This post helps me. It was like all my insides were screaming.

Much love,
Larry

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Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)

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