can i tell you something that may seem weird?
for some reason - i am reminded of that old story of the icarus and the wax wings -
he felt so proud and full of himself that he could now fly with the wings he made - but got too close to the sun and they melted and he fell down to earth in a heap -
as the article says failure does bring you down to earth - and it can be seen as an "opportunity" to learn - learn more about 'how was i fooling myself there?' - or as you said - how was i not being honest with myself?
it is very hard stuff to deal with -
i think it is part of the abuse too that
failure is ingrained in us as an essential flaw in our natures -
at least that is part of the abuse - on me -
yet the standard was a falsehood
i just hope you can be ok with yourself and take the opportunity to see any challenge as an opportunity - peace -
thanks for this article -
"...do not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders
"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous