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#76952 - 07/06/03 12:08 AM Re: Godsrabbit
jwh Offline
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Registered: 02/18/01
Posts: 98
Loc: dallas, tx
Godsrabbit,

Thank you, thank you--your reply was as helpful to me as I hope my message was to you. I am actually going to print it out and save it to refer to. That's a wonderful idea about stopping and thinking "is that what God would say to me?"

Your brother in recovery,

Jeff

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#76953 - 07/06/03 12:27 AM Re: Godsrabbit
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jeff,

yes, thank you...very much...

i was fortunate enough that my own father was a very gentle and generous man...my mother was inconsistent at best, psychotic at worst, and so i have a great deal of trouble with self-doubt, self-esteem, boundary and control issues...and built into all of that is a constant nagging self-criticism for which i am constantly having to remind myself that God loves me and nothing else matters...

...and if God loves me and thinks i am worthy of being loved, who am i to argue with him...ha...

thank you again...

~ rabbit


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#76954 - 07/06/03 12:47 AM Re: Godsrabbit
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James, thanks for starting such a beautiful affirming post about a fellow survivor. What an example for us to follow!

Rabbit, you deserve it! LYLAB

The rest of you, thanks for contributing to an uplifting thread.

Victor

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#76955 - 07/06/03 12:48 AM Re: Godsrabbit
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Registered: 04/13/02
Posts: 1332
Loc: Wyoming
Rabbit,
This thread has really turned into something good. I just wanted to share my thoughts on God. For years I thought God turned his back on me. Oh the nights I prayed for him to make my step father stop. Through time and healing I've seen now that God didnt turn his back on me I turned mine on him, he was always right there with me. I lived, I survived, I'm here. I still have problems with the God issues in my life and I envey those who seem to have it figured out. But, I dont hate those who have a good realationship with God just becaues mine isnt where I want it to be. It's not God's fault thats it's not what I want it to be, it's mine. He sends me everything I need....like you rabbit.....kind of like the joke about the man who's house was in danger of being distroyed by the flod and he kept saying Im not leaveing God will protect me.....a suv came and he said no, a boat came by he said no, a helecopper came by and he said no....well he drowned....when standing in front of God he asked why didnt you save me....God said "I sent a suv, a boat, and a helechopper...what more did you want." Just like in real life we have to see the help God sends us. And say YES I'll gladly take that help.
Thank you Rabbit and Victor for both of you proudly standing and saying...I'll gladly send anyone of us a suv, boat, helechopper or even the space shuttle (in my case expecily..lol). Thank you for standing stong on your beliefs. It makes me glad to call ya'll brothers.
James

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#76956 - 07/06/03 12:53 AM Re: Godsrabbit
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I know that this post is not directed at me, but I would like to respond, as to say something also to Godsrabbit....I just wish to you say at you that you are to me such a good example of truly overcoming of all this. I know that I am not much a good man, and I struggle in my beliefs right now. Do not misunderstand, I still believe much strongly in my creator, and always will. But I am of bewilderment and some dissatisfaction at him right now, while thinking and trying to deal of all these things. But you, and others here, you are so much more wise of me, you are able to fully realize that it is NOT our place to understand all things, it is presumptuous for me to try that! I know that you, and several others here, are clergymen...and to me, that shows so much grace, and dignity. Even with the darkening of spirit toward some religion right now, it is still so much of good people, people who are of a higher understanding and empathy of me, and I hold so much respect and admiration at those good men and women. Yes, a very small amount of those people have harmed others; so have a small amount of doctors, teachers, coaches, parents, neighbors, and so on. I am so sorry that things here became so much difficult that you were to consider leaving...I was not here for some days, and was not aware of that. I just wish to tell you that I much appreciate the kindness you have shown me in my time here, and that I find you a valuable person to me. Thank you for staying. Also, thank you James, for posting this, to let someone know that they are appreciated and wanted, that is a generous action of you. You also are a good man.

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#76957 - 07/06/03 01:00 AM Re: Godsrabbit
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bless you victor...

james,

oy...i could not count on all fingers and toes the numbers of boats God has sent me through the years which i chose to ignore or turn away...! good heavens i have often been a fool...

while i have never blamed God outright for being raped or seduced, i certainly have spent a great deal of time crying: why why why? and begging God to let me have some peace in my life...only to realize, as you stated, peace was there if i would only leave myself alone and stop condemning myself for things i could not control...

accepting God's unconditional love has been the hardest thing for me to do in my heart: my head, sure...i can read the bible or any text and say "God is love" and "God is mercy", but for years really embracing that on more than an intellectual level has been so difficult...because it means we must try to love ourselves as unconditionally as God does...

i came back here because this place is a boat...and it is not for me to judge the sea-worthiness of it...i need to trust in the providence of God...we all do...

in Christ,

~ rabbit


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#76958 - 07/06/03 01:05 AM Re: Godsrabbit
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Registered: 06/18/03
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leosha,

bless you...we all struggle...do not place yourself in the trap of feeling bad for being at odds with your faith...do not get yourself into that cycle of being angry and then being afraid...God is patient and he will weather your confusion and your pain...do not give up...there is so much good...

and bless you for your courage for speaking here...i know how upsetting it is when there are disagreements and confusions and miscommunications...you have spoken up in many threads and spoken wisely...you have an immense and loving heart, leosha...never let anyone tell you otherwise or shame you for your struggle...struggle is good...if you are not struggling, you are not growing...even a plant must struggle upward from the ground...so we do too: toward the light...

thank you...i keep you in my prayers...


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#76959 - 07/06/03 01:08 AM Re: Godsrabbit
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Registered: 04/13/02
Posts: 1332
Loc: Wyoming
Quote:
i can read the bible or any text and say "God is love" and "God is mercy",
If understanding came as easy as reading. Keep up the good fight Rabbit, the armor of God can be heavy at times but remember God helps you carry it.
James

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