For some reason, even tho I am a member, I cannot reply to member posts...so here goes...I understand your anger and pain...I almost went after a priest who was not even MY perp...finally got some help and meds to help me deal with my post traumatic stress disorder. Dude, you are a military man and you know the impact of PTSD...same with us survivors. Don't do anything that will only hurt you...I have done the self-destruct routine with sex and drugs...here I am a married man and I have pedalled my ass around more than I can remember...abusing myself and risking my health, job, family...life. Take my advice and if you are not getting help, get some. You deserve it. You are among people who understand.

Marty

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I survive, one day at a time...knowing that I now can accept the things that cannot be changed, change the things I can and find the wisdom to know the difference.