Paul Goldings first novel is a work of fiction, but just how fictional is hard to tell.
It tells the story of a boy born into a privelidged family in Spain, his life in an English boarding school and his life as a young man in the London gay scene.
The book is finely written and deals with his early abusive experiences and the young mans battles with his sexuality in such a way that I felt it never wandered into the realms of pornography, although it is extremely graphic, and could easily trigger memories and emotions, it did with me. I was abused at boarding school.
But I personally got more out of it than it risked taking away.
It's a fine novel, and I'll leave you with this quote, it sent a shiver down my spine,and it still does.
"All I can feel is the tremor of his fur,and the assumption of his beard, hovering over me, over my ear, too closely in fact, and audibly demurring but ultimately finding the courage, he now whispers to me those words which have been whispered since time immemorial, the fatal line that this is, must be, cannot but be, and I must never, ever forget, our special secret.
I do not flinch. I could not for the life of me.
And then he goes and shows me, proves it all to me. Bequeaths me the very world. Undoes me. I have never cared less. Take this, all of you and eat it; this is my body which will be given up for you."
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.
Henry David Thoreau