Thanks Victor. I like being here and look forward to coming here. Again, I'm so unsure about many things, definitely not unsure about the physical and emotional aspect, that's without doubt, but what I think I'll eventually find. Last night I started digging deep, starting thinking along the lines of my mother, started then getting nauseous and backed away. Not looking for blame at all, I know after getting mad I’ll understand and will forgive them or who ever did this to me, I just want some reason for all the BS coping and lying I've had to do and put up with and want to like me for a change.
Only one week since coming to see things I'd not seen before I feel different, better, more at ease. Today was startling! An intern got a floppy stuck in a Zip drive and I understood it was just a mistake AND I didn't go into a rage or try to belittle her. I even told her to not worry. Then later in the day a Welfare to Work client working with us did something and my reaction was the same as earlier in the day.
I almost want to shout out to everyone what happened, about me discovering my abuse, but I know it wouldn’t really mean anything to most people anyway.
I like what I'm feeling and want to know more. A word of caution about the movie, the kid who plays the lead is very convincing - at least to me anyway.