the real question is how do I become sexual in the first place. It's way too easy to withdraw into my own little world where I feel safe. Since I've made the decision to open up to my friends, I've actually begun to talk about my situation. Albeit, with much difficulty. But the good thing is that it is becoming much easier to deal with out in the open. And with it in the open I can't deny my reality. That is good because I'm too temped to withdraw again.
Mike you withdrew into you little world for a long time. Stepping out of it is very difficult and terrifying but you have started to do just that. The rewards will be immense.
As to becoming sexual the real question is how do I become sexual in the first place
Mike you may not know it but we are all sexual by birth. The human condition makes us that way. My sexuality was severly disfigured by SA and prostitution. But I also confused the two phrases. Sex is just that Sex and nothing more. On he other hand sexuality I think involves the mind the soul your very essence as well as the body. In effect everything you own.
Sex is an erection and orgasm and that is it.
It took me a long time to differentiate.
Sexuality can only be shared I think
I too buried it deep, so deep that there are times it goes back where I am safest. But I force it back out. Old habits die hard.
I think Mike like this Mike it will likely happen when you least expect it. It involves a remarkable attraction to someone else that kind of makes you tingle and helps you drive away that safey mechanism
I dont know if this is clear or I am totally out to lunch.