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#71372 - 04/07/02 08:10 PM ...yeah,I went thru this
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From age 12 in 1958 till I graduated from Tustin High School in 1964 my mother was calling me to her bedroom. I was terrified of girls all that time. After graduation I was still terrified. Wondered if I was a momma's boy,queer,etc. In 1968 I met a guy on the Sunset Strip in LA. Said he was gay. Wanted to do the nasty with me. I figured this was Tinfoil's shot at finding out if he liked whangs. We went into a gas station men's room. He blew me. It did zilch. I gave him what I considered to be an A+ blow job. If you're going to do something,do it right. That's always been my motto. He loved it. Did nada for me. And that's how I found out I'm not gay. True story.


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#71373 - 04/08/02 04:20 AM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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Registered: 03/25/02
Posts: 25
Loc: Midlands UK
Tinfoil

I did something similar, going with a male prostitute just to see how it felt. Like you it did not do a lot for me and although I could bring myself to touch him it was an effort. Interestingly, I only did this after I had come to the point where I would have been just as happy whichever way it went - if I had still been worried about peoples reactions to me coming out then I probably would not have done it.

But despite now being quite sure of where I am sexually I still get occassional fantasies of gay sex, usually when I am especially turned on. I think this is to do with being turned on by being made to do things I really don't want to do. (No prizes for guessing wherethat came from!)

So I'm not confused anymore but there are occassional moments of confusion.

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#71374 - 04/08/02 11:31 AM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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#71375 - 04/08/02 10:31 PM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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I go to great lengths not to be explicit. But in this case,an exception because I felt it was important as re sexual confusion. And it really did happen. I'm not making it up. The incident actually helped me. A lot. Same as when mom's incest went from implied to actual/physical. I had thought I was insane,imagining it all. Then she came into my bedroom,masturbated me. I realized I was'nt insane,that this was really happening.


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#71376 - 04/30/02 06:47 PM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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from the age of 11 to 15 I was abused by a gang of older boys led by a teacher at boarding school, from the day they stopped I never had sex with another man- until..
The fantasy of sex with strange men became an obsession and eventually I started acting out until the inevitable happened when I was 46.
And it was exactly like my fantasy, I couldn't have>
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#71377 - 04/30/02 07:49 PM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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Registered: 05/24/01
Posts: 66
Loc: n.a.
TO YOU ALL...
I HAVE READ A LOT OF STUFF HERE AND AM STILL HAVING A PROBLEM WITH MY SEX FANTASIES! I CAN'T STOP THINKING HOW GOOD IT FELT WHEN I DID IT WITH A GUY WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, BUT KNOW, BEING 55, I JUST SIT BACK AND REMEMBER HOW I FELT WHEN I WAS MOLESTED BY 3 GUYS MY FIRST TIME AT THE AGE OF 6 AND I SHUDDER TO THINK THAT I MIGHT HAVE THAT SAME FEELING TO DO THAT TO ANOTHER GUY...I GET SCARED WHEN THIS HAPPENS

I GUESS THATS WHEN REALITY TAKES OVER AND I GO IN FRONT OF THE MIRROR AND STRIP AND TELL MYSELF I'M NO GOOD...OH WELL, WHAT TO DO...


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#71378 - 05/01/02 12:21 AM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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I'm waiting for the Japanese to come out with the first really good sex doll robots. I'd pay five grand for one. Damn right. Does'nt have to be Star Trek. Close will do.
You can order a guy one. I'll order my sister when she was 15 and I was 12. Arafat can order a camel. The Catholic Church will be buying these by the gross. The mind boggles..!!


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#71379 - 05/01/02 02:35 PM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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I was trying to make a point with my last post. That there's more involved with sex than sticking a penis in a hole. Any hole human,animal,vegetable or mineral,male or female. From what I've read and heard about child molesters,other than screwing kids they're normal enough to function within society. These guys can't be cured. They can't be held in prison forever and they can't be executed. I'm wondering if providing these guys with an actual robotic child would satisfy their desires and protect society.


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#71380 - 05/01/02 08:39 PM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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Registered: 04/17/02
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Sticking a penis in a hole without, love, care, affection, trust and all the other stuff that's considered desirable is just a physical action. And if that's what we learn at a tender age it appears that's what we're stuck with. And changing our attitudes and perceptions of sex seems just about impossible ( if I'm wrong - tell me -PLEASE )
So how hard is it to change the behaviour of offenders who don't want to change ?
Give them dolls ? It's the expensive option, let them fuck each others brains out- in jail - for life.

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#71381 - 05/02/02 12:35 AM Re: ...yeah,I went thru this
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But it begs the question "Is this what it's all about,an orgasm?". I spent two years behind bars for drug possession during the late 60s/early 70s. I did'nt rape anyone. I whacked off. No-one got hurt. I had my orgasms,the fantasies were in Technicolor and no-one got hurt. A good time was had. Maybe it's cause I was born in 1946 from a different era and all that. But I think the guys nowadays who fuck children are pathetic. They've got fucked up brains. They're into this New Age bullshit that excuses and justifies their wants. Well hey ya know it's not their fault. They had a bad childhood. Poor babies!

[ May 01, 2002: Message edited by: Tinfoil ]


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