Hi guys. A couple of days ago, I received an email from an online florist I'd used 3 years ago to send my ex flowers for his birthday (today). I have no intention of sending him flowers, and the email, while they were trying to generate repeat business, was an unwelcome intrusion into my recovery. I really didn't want to think about him, about how he date raped me, etc. I don't know if I would've thought about him or not from some other trigger. Anyway, I decided to be intentional about using today for ME and celebrating MYSELF. So I went for a 42 mile bicycle ride with a friend. A second unexpected trigger happened then. We changed our planned route somewhat, and ended up riding by a (beautiful) natural landmark where I had once gone with my ex. I apparently got more quiet and inside myself than I realized because my cycling partner asked me if I were angry with her. I assurred her that I was not. I didn't cry or tear up, but I was withdrawnn for a bit.
That's my check-in.