Yes, it's good to have role models to refer back to, but ultimately I guess it comes down to something you already come close to saying yourself. It's a matter of what is good for us and what we choose, and trying to build up the strength to make sure those amount to the same thing.
That's rich coming from someone who spent so many years doing exactly what was NOT good for him. But finally I listened - not only to people who were trying to help me, but also to myself.
There are all kinds of things that might be fulfilling and fun right here and now, but at what cost? It's when we answer that question honestly that we will really make progress my friend. I wish you all the best of luck, and I know you can do this and still have a rewarding, fulfilled and joyous life.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)