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#70191 - 05/13/06 12:28 PM admission
markgreyblue Offline

Registered: 12/19/03
Posts: 5400
Loc: Pasadena, CA
i think after walking around this morning -

looking for a place for coffee - i found it was too early for the coffee shops to be open

despite the lightness outside due to the summertime cycles -

i walked more and frustrated as if knocking on a
door that is never answered - i realized i had to find occupation for the moment until hour came -

i walked - and

it still was boring - but it was painful -
but why was i still walking - ?

- found some comfort soon - and then made it back to the cafe - over this time which was about an hour -

and sat i find in knowing now i can want - and wanting is directing my life -

i also know now - during those moments of not getting what i want - there is "opporunity" to plan for how it will be when my time is come!
(and partly too - the vague plans - curiousness of it all too - how i seem to want things that so connect - in so many ways.)

it is basic - but it is fundamental - and good -

i waited a few more minutes - and got my stuff -

i came home again - then

and thought how this wanting things as we would have them - and yet - that not always being possibble - and yet still wanting satisfaction -
it's true -

" not look outside yourself for the leader."
-wisdom of the hopi elders

"...the sign of a true leader is service..." - anonymous

#70192 - 05/13/06 01:05 PM Re: admission
roadrunner Offline
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Registered: 05/02/05
Posts: 22045
Loc: Carlisle, PA

Maybe it would help you to think of variations of that question. What do I need, as opposed to what do I want? Why? Are there immediate little things I can do to make my life happier and more fulfilling?

That said, I think a reflective man will always be wondering about the kinds of questions you have in mind. That means you are living a real life, with all the ups and downs, and not just going through the motions.

Much love,

Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me.
(Woody Guthrie)


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