I am sorry for what happened to you. I was raped 3 yrs ago by a 'friendly' guy too who turned out to be a serial rapist of young gay men. I was 20 I bled too, and was stabbed. I am very sad i did not go to the police straight away but I was confused and there was police involvement in it. I needed stitches but they did not give me them because no doctor wants to get involved, no-one and since i reported it late. The attack was sick. I felt it very hard to get on with life, I sometimes feel ok but then i get really down. It s like a dangerous roller coaster. Its very hard to find someone taht understands. I jut feel that once someones knows what happened to me they treat me differently straight away and run! Nivekid75 I just wanna say you are a special person and you deserve happiness and feel comfortable and I hope you find good understanding friends that should support you and hopefully that special someone that will help you on the road to recovery. I sometimes walk down the street and feel so out of place with the rest of society. I think they do not have to deal with this and they would be disgusted if they find out what happened to me. It can be very stressing, isolating and confusing. But I think there is a some guys that feel the same even though every experience is different in a way. I feel like it would be good to go to a group of male survivors and perhaps make friends there. I sometimes feel there would be someone that I would click with there and that can help each other go over this horrid ordeal. Its funny how even when years past i can still feel anger and pain. Its very hard to get into a realtionship even if I REALLY like a guy and just have to let it go, or even friendship for that matter.
But we are very special people, because we know how important life is and how cruel it was for them to have had violated us in a way. I hope that your attacker gets what he deserves and I hope you will find happiness. You are very brave and inspirational and you have shown people that we deserve respect, dignity and justice just like any one else.
I will not give up - Andrew