I know I haven't posted in some time. I've just been trying to deal with everything I'm going through with myself and taking care of my uncle. I must say, though, last night I came the closest I've been to calling it quits on ALL levels since I was 23. I don't even know if I should post this here, but I have to let it out or I'll give in to these thoughts.
I've been out a seven-year relationship for over a year now. But since then he's called me every three months or so to harass me and he even has tracked me across the net to a half-dozen websites I visited regularly. As recent as last week, he found me at yet another website and has devoted his entire profile to slamming me. He's shared my history with CSA on that profile and is saying I'll turn out the same way as my stepfather; calling me kinds of things in relation to that. He's made threats via email to me about taking my life and harming my family.
I've already started legal proceedings for a warrant and a protective order, but last night I couldn't take anymore. I so wanted it all just to end. I'm not like my stepfathers and I never will be, but what my ex has on his profile for anyone to see is too much. I know I'm stronger than this, but I really don't know how long I can hang on anymore. It's stressful enough taking care of my uncle and seeing my therapist, but to have deal with my ex and what he's doing to is wearing me out. I don't even know if he has or can find his way here. God, I don't know what else I can do.
Sorry to unload here, I really am. I just hate this and I'm tired of it all. I'll leave it that for now.