Hi Jasper, bizarre? Hope you don't mind a ghost story. When Wifey1, said she was leaving the site a while back, I got a real strong feeling that my mom wanted me to tell her to stay. I didn't tell her, but I am real glad she came back to the site. I also got the feeling that my mom understood about me rejecting her, and that she understood, and forgave me. I don't really believe in ghost, I am sure it is just a feeling.
But reading your message, and Mom's back, I get the feeling that she knows what your mom would do. Your mom would just pull you onto her lap, and put her arms around you and rock you until, you no longer had those shameful feeling.
If this feels way out there, it's ok. It's just what I am feeling right now.