There's a whole world of people out there, and so many women who would never be anything but loving towards you after knowing what's happened to you. I know, for me, like I've said in my other posts, it actually makes me feel safer and closer to a person to know that they've been through something similar to me, and I've found that over the years, the men who I have fallen the most in love with have all (ok, there are 2 of them.. but that's still all of them!) been through experiences of CSA.
So please, please don't feel like you're damaged goods, or like this makes you less loveable, or less desirable in some way, because it's just not true! A good person, whether a friend or a lover, will NOT judge you for what has happened to you, and will love you not just in spite of it, but because you've been through so much and come out the other side with enough strength to not only get up every day and live your life, but also to appreciate those around you who love and support eachother.. which is obvious to me from your posting here.
So all my love and best wishes to you! And I wish you all the luck in the world in finding someone who deserves YOU.. because you so obviously are someone with a big heart who deserves the best.