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#66988 - 06/27/03 09:40 PM Re: Sorry to intrude--but I need help
stpbb Offline
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Registered: 03/03/03
Posts: 103
PinP,

Without knowing what the situation is, it is hard to give a well thought out reply. One thing I do believe is that we can't control what others do. Either you understand & can be loving and supportive because you believe in him or else you will lose all respect and understanding based on his actions (or something in between).

It sounds a little like there is a 'if you ____, then I won't be here for you'. Am I misinterpreting? If that is the case, then I think it all depends on '_____'. The bottom line message is that you want some control over the situation, whether it is maintaining contact or preventing violence. It sounds like you don't have that because he is taking the position that he has to do things this way.

If he is talking about harming himself or someone else, then perhaps there is a more serious step that you should/could take. Can you fill us in any more? Maybe you can get some better suggestions from the members on the board if you can clarify a bit. There are always lots of good opinions and advice on this board.

-BB.


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#66989 - 06/27/03 10:40 PM Re: Sorry to intrude--but I need help
outis Offline
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Registered: 02/27/03
Posts: 2258
Loc: Maryland USA
Quote:
he could care less if he makes it thru, as long as the perp is gone, he is satisfied.
PartnerInPain,

I hope your friend is not planning to "take justice into his own hands" with violence against the perp. It will not bring your friend any relief.

It is important that we work toward stopping sexual abuse, but some means cannot be justified by any end.

I am glad that I do not have to make the decision that you seem to be facing. It is not fair that your friend would put you in such a situation.

You spoke of principles. I fear that you will have to act on your principles if there is no other way to stop your friend.

If there is any chance at all that you can get him to come here, go to a crisis center, etc., please try.

May God help both of you at this time.

Joe

_________________________
"Telemachos, your guest is no discredit to you. I wasted no time in stringing the bow, and I did not miss the mark. My strength is yet unbroken…"—The Odyssey, translated by W.H.D. Rouse

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#66990 - 06/28/03 01:01 AM Re: Sorry to intrude--but I need help
dwf Offline
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Registered: 05/24/03
Posts: 1223
Loc: Austin, Texas USA
Howdy, Partner, \:\)
(I couldn't resist that; us Texans have pretty corny sense of humor! :rolleyes:

It's Danny, here. I'm pretty new here too. If you don't mind though I'd like to share a little bit
of my experience with you. If it helps, great. If
is doesn't, then just take what works and leave the rest. OK?

Now that YOU are in touch with a helping network, I would really encourage you to explore, experience and share your feelings about what is happening in YOUR life.

Personally, I have found that I have a tendency to become absorbed in the drama of other peoples lives. Sometimes so much so, that I am unable to think or respond with any real discernment.

Sometimes, I have taken actions under the influence of this obsession with others that I have ended up feeling that I have betrayed myself or actually harmed the person I was "just trying to help". (I've thought of having that on my gravestone "I was only trying to help!")

Please understand, I am not in doubt about your love or commitment to your partner. And I do know what it is like to be in love with someone who is on a path of self destruction or harm.
It is a really tough place to be. It hurts like hell, and I never knew what to do.

I can tell that you want to do the most loving thing for your partner. My suggestion is similar to the other guys here. Seek professional help.

The effects of sexual abuse are too much for any one of else to handle alone. Issues of criminality, emotional disturbance or psychiatric imbalance are best handled by professionals.

You have done the right thing in coming here. You need to find relief for your pain and your anxiety. Then you will be in a much better position to be of assistance to your loved one.

Part of the tragedy of sexual abuse is the effect it has on those closest to the victim. You, because you are a loving person, have found yourself in that position.

It's important for you to remember that you did not cause this to happen, you cannot control it (nobody can) and you cannot cure this in your friend, no matter how hard you try or how much you wish him to be healed. That is his work to do. It does not reflect in any way on your worth, strength or moral character.

And while you can and should be loving and supportive, especially by gaining knowledge about sexual abuse, which you are doing here, you cannot do this work for him--nor can you or should you do the work of the law enforcement, medical doctors or psychiatrists.

You have your own work to do also. And it involves taking care of yourself and being present when and if your loved one is ready to seek help.

Sure make him aware of the resources that you have found, take appropriate action if you fear he may hurt himself or others even perhaps consider an intervention of sorts, if the professionals you consult agree that it would be helpful.

You are not going to be in any shape to help in any of these ways if you cannot find a way to some support and serenity for yourself.

You cannot give him what you do not have.

Sexual abuse is a brutal violation of a man's mind, body and soul. Being the partner of a survivor has it's own challenges. You deserve to be loved and supported, whether your partner gets better or not.

To be more direct, please notice that your posts are very much centered on your significant other. It is easy to see that he is the one with "the problems". Since you love him, do you think now that perhaps you have problems of your own?

Where are you in this? What are you feeling?
What are you doing to deal with all of this in your life?

Now that you are aware of the problems your friend is facing, it is going to be more and more difficult but more and more necessary for you to somehow find the strength to bring the focus back to yourself. Because that is truly the only place any of us can make changes.

As we change our attitudes, it is sometimes surprising how those around us change too.

While you didn't cause, can't cure or control the effects of the sexual abuse, you do have a choice in what your CONTRIBUTION to this situation can be.

And that depends on what you do to help yourself.

You are in the right place. And I'm glad you're here. I often think of how many other victims of sexual abuse never get a chance to speak--the families and friends who lose their loved ones to anger, shame and fear. They and you are victims too.

I am so sorry about what brought you here. But I am glad that you have found this place. There is a lot of comfort, hope and strength here.

Please come back and share whatever you need to.

Welcome, from another survivor of sexual abuse,

_________________________
"Poke salad Annie, 'gators got you granny
Everybody said it was a shame
'Cause her mama was aworkin' on the chain-gang"

-Tony Joe White

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#66991 - 06/30/03 01:12 PM Re: Sorry to intrude--but I need help
PARTNERINPAIN Offline
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Registered: 06/27/03
Posts: 12
Loc: WASHINGTON
Quote:
Originally posted by dwf:

Where are you in this? What are you feeling?
What are you doing to deal with all of this in your life?
Well.. After all this, I finished moving my stuff on saturday, and went to leave a note on his pillow, meanwhile I find open condom wrappers on his bedstand. I really wasnt snooping! It helped me let go of the love. His brother also told me he took this GIRL to his parents, who absolutely adore me. He has called 2x since I sent him a nasty text message and I havent answered. Im feeling slightly angry. Dealing with it, learning to live my own life, taking care of me. I find this message board and another for partners for survivors is doing me good. I dont feel as though I should speak to our freinds about this. Im waiting for him to come to terms....If I dont get a message from him I think I will call him in a week. No one in his life can beleive what he is doing, they dont know about the abuse/revenge. Im very nervous about his reaction to my "your a liar" text message. Or the inspirational meditation about anger that I left on his pillow. The thought for saturday as I find the condoms said " Are you letting past anger hold you back?"


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#66992 - 06/30/03 11:55 PM Re: Sorry to intrude--but I need help
dwf Offline
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Registered: 05/24/03
Posts: 1223
Loc: Austin, Texas USA
Partner,

Thanks for the update. Keep posting so we can know how you are.

Sounds like you're doing what you need to do to care for yourself in this situation.

I'm sure you know that it's more than OK for you to be 'a little angry' or even a lot. You'll most likely feel some sadness and grief too.

Whatever happens, remember that you don't have to go through this alone.

Welcome!

Regards,

_________________________
"Poke salad Annie, 'gators got you granny
Everybody said it was a shame
'Cause her mama was aworkin' on the chain-gang"

-Tony Joe White

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#66993 - 07/07/03 04:08 PM Re: Sorry to intrude--but I need help
ernie Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/26/02
Posts: 121
Loc: Portland, Maine
Partner, The responses to your original post are strong advise............Take care of you! I wish I had this knowledge three years ago. I would not have gotten so angry at my wife that she asked me to leave, that she was not there when I needed her support the most. I had to find me first, help me first before I could accept the help and advise of others.
Encouragement yes, for your BF, love yes for your BF, the strength that a hug gives is unimaginable when a victum is so far down that they can't get up.
Be there, listen, don't pass judgement because you are only seeing the outward signs of the pain he is going through. Believe me, the pain is so deep and lasts for so long you start to think that it will never go away, but it can, I am beginning to find that out.
Come back, post often no one is here to judge or critize what someone wants to know. The knowledge of others is what has helped many here get the help they need on their own journey. I wish I had found it 40 years ago but back then, no one talked about Male Sexual Abuse.........it did not happen, and if you believe that I have some land in Florida to sell!!
Bob

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The roads of life are full of stones but, they can be moved take my hand we will help each other.

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#66994 - 07/10/03 03:17 PM Re: Sorry to intrude--but I need help
PARTNERINPAIN Offline
Junior Member

Registered: 06/27/03
Posts: 12
Loc: WASHINGTON
Ive come back after a week or so of thinking.
Being the first time in my life Ive ever been single (since 15) living on my own, taking care of just me, it feels good. I talked to him a few times. The first 2 times I tried to convince him that he needed to take care of all this in his head, not with his hands. I was still heart broken, and wanting him to beg my forgiveness. But his body language from the start told me it was a lost cause. This has been eating at him since 5 yrs old. I read this quote from Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

"Darkness cannot drive out darkness;
only light can do that.
Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that."
And it helped me realize that I AM right. I did try. As only a true freind can. I asked him to choose which was more important to his growth ultimately love or hate. And lets just say I lost.
But maybe I really won. Ive learned alot about myself, and the length Im willing to go for another person. Our relationship was not a model one. But here I am with all these new possibilities. I have been pushed out of his world. I feel he is avoiding me due to the fact that I AM his only true friend, and only a true freind can tell you how stupid you are for the desicions you make, and still be a freind. He just cant handle it. Im saddest about this because I know that he will never have another "me" in his life. Im not being egotistical, but I know there isnt another person out there like me, just as there isnt another person like HIM out there. But I can live with the fact. I am grateful for what I have gained and what is gone. Ive decided to focus on myself, give my self assignments of things to accomplish. I will miss him dearly, and it hurts when he calls and asks lame questions, but It may be hurting him more. After all this, even though it hurts, I am still there as his freind, when he is ready.


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