I was not offended by your questions. To better understand SA effects on adults.
I believe it was a little bit of both. Hubby could not slow down his sexual wants. Hubby also was springing back from his girlfriend aborting his baby. He wanted someone to keep. He also told me that he felt that he was rescusing me from my mom to a normal life.
My childhood was my mom hovering over me to protect me. My mom was also my best friend. I went to her like a girlfriend to gosship. I told her everything up until close to 11th grade.
There was a SA thing that happened when I was about 11 that happened only once.
My Grandpa felt me up on the excuse of feeling if I had wet pants. I do not think that any of his fingers went in my vigina.
I always remembered getting whatever I wanted as a kid. I was never punished. My mom + I had a conversation about this very thing. Mom could not punish me. I would just do something else.
Mom would not let me go play outside, I would go watch TV. Mom then took away TV, I would go read + so on.
My mom + dad both came from abusive families + promised not to do the same things to us. My mom was very overlyprotective + nagged us. My dad was a loner + read 5 newspapers a day.
Dad rarely talked. My mom's dad was a violent alcoholic. My dad came from a home with 10 brothers + 1 sister. Did he have SA when he was a kid????????
1 other SA thing that happened is my other Grandpa put his whole hand on my leg + I could not move my leg. That happened when hubby was in the Gulf War + my son was already here. I did not like my Grandpa then. It only happened once.
Me as a kid was extremely friendly, overlytrusting. I trusted anyone with anything. I was very snotty. I was friends with everyone in school. I also listened into other peoples conversations. I was very skinny + cute. I thought I looked plain.
Would I have done this with differant partner???
Yes, I am pretty sure that I would have. I do not think that I could have started that sort of sex, but yet normal sex would have been a little boring.
Well, that's my story + I'm stickin' to it.
WITH MUCH LOVE,