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#64949 - 09/21/06 07:40 PM Panic Attacks
Cecilia Offline
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Registered: 08/07/06
Posts: 63
Loc: Maine
I go through waves of emotion. Right now I am in the midst of feeling absolutely frozen by the fear that my husband is going to just walk away from me forever. That I don't mean anything to him. That he will immediately replace me with another woman.

I know. I am supposed to remember that if he does that then what was our marriage really about anyway. But that doesn't help me in the moments when I am feeling like I'm going to die b/c of how betrayed I feel.

Before he left, he said things to me that made me feel so ugly and worthless. I don't think I am those things, but I have no image of myself right now. I am MOM more than anything. The thing is, I feel like I have been MOM to him, too.

Other people (my mom and sister, \:\) ), tell me I am beautiful, smart, kind, etc., . . . why can't my husband reaffirm those things to me.

I am really just dumping right now. I wish I could summon up some of the anger other's seem able to feel. I just feel sad. And really scared. And lonely.

C


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#64950 - 09/21/06 09:41 PM Re: Panic Attacks
Brokenhearted Offline
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Registered: 08/07/06
Posts: 644
Loc: TX
C,

I am so sorry for your pain. Fear is a terrible thing.

Intellectually you know you are not those ugly things he told you. I know it made you feel bad, but we cannot always trust our feelings. Try to keep your head in this.

Panic attacks are no fun. I've had a few, none today, thank goodness, but I'm sure I'll get to have a few more yet.

I am proud of myself because I just ate a chocolate chip cookie and enjoyed it. I'm still alive, and I'm still able to enjoy some things.

_________________________
Brokenhearted

It were better for him that a millstone were hanged around his neck, and he cast into the sea, than that he should offend one of these little ones.
Luke 17:2

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