My life has turned upside down since Januarary 27. I do not drive, so it depends On Mr Edd's moods on wheither I get some job applications. Usually no.
We need someone to get a job very, very soon. But Mr Edd's healing has to come first. I am usually very accepting of Mr Edd's moods, but right now I am frustrated.
Always asking for help moneywise is very embarrashing.
We never had to go on welfare + we still do not want to.
I even sometimes just want it to go back to how I was living before, but I do not believe in divorce. I truly took an oath before God + said for better or worse. Plus Edwin's life would not be getting him on the road to recovery. Edwin needs me now like he has never ever needed me before.
I am so glad that I can vent here plus vent with my outside support system. THANK YOU!!! Let me tell you guys about my support system outside of here.
It is our whole church here. Most of the people just let me talk + get some of the shit out in the open, plus talking out loud helps me release some of the pressures of supporting a survivor. We also have an accountability group Biblicily based that Mr Edd is opening up + healing. :p We have 1 good friend whom is from our accountability class that meets 2x a week. Anyways I am so grateful that I have a lot of support because sometimes I need that much support because it is differant levels of support. Thank you for letting me ramble on with my thoughts running everywhich way.
WITH MUCH LOVE,