My husband has withdrawn himself again, and this time it is total. He won't talk to my young children, and isolates himself to the basement when they are in the room, but will come up and watch tv in the living room when they are in bed, etc. I hate to see them not get answered when they ask him something, anything. It breaks my heart. I'm an adult and I'm having a hard time with this yet again, it never seems to get easier. I can't seem to unplug myself from the hurt of him handling things in this manner (he got angry with me over a disagreement).
I feel like I want to leave, just get away from the frigid atmosphere, so the kids don't see it and sense it. I'm afriad of what they take away from these episodes of his. I'm trying to stay strong for them and him, help HIM, etc., but I feel like a rug on the floor. A pregnant one at that.
I don;t have the luxury of just checking out on my family, children, husband. What if I did that? I have to be strong, and put up a brave face. I can't crumble with pain and isolate myself. I am angry at him for doing this, and I am left with everything to deal with.
I know this sounds harsh towards my survivor husband. I'm sorry to any survivors an spouses if I offend. I'm just trying to cope, it is overwhelming me. I need to vent somewhere, and this is all I have.