MrEdd is in the hospital getting help. On Wensday the 20th at 2 am MrEdd [ my husband] woke up from a bad dream. It got worse + MrEdd woke me up to hug him. I did + tryed to get back to sleep. Ed cried + fussed for 15 minutes. Ed got up + slammed the wall + stood for 2 minutes. MrEdd got back in bed + I held his hand. Ed wrenched his hand from me + did motions I did not understand for 15 seconds - Mr Edd pulled his chest hair out. I stopped him. MrEdd cried harder + longer + begged me to call his sister. MrEdd now realizes that he had 2 rapists that fucked him in that filthy daycare. He woke up to a super violent flashback. Anyways he needed a lot more help than I could give him. I have no earthly idea when MrEdd will be back. MrEdd is sleeping his days away + getting stablized. I visit him for 1 hour if he is not in with his female doctor. Life is a little lonely right now, but I have a great outside support system. I hope MrEdd will realize what a great support system He will have when he gets out. MrEdd will still stay here + get support but maybe a tiny bit less.


With Much Love,
Kim

Kim,

Thanks for letting us know, as we've been really concerned about MrEdd. Of course we are concerned for you as well. I'm glad he's getting the help he needs, and that you have a good support system.
Both of you take good care. Keep us posted if you can.

Victor

Kim
Ed' is lucky to have someone like you to love and care for him, but remember to take care of yourself as well.

If you get time please let us know how he's doing, we care about you both.

Dave.

Hi Kim,

I echo the thoughts already here. Edwin gets really hard on himself. But at the same time he is remembering the worst thing that can happen to a kid.

I am sure Ed will work hard with his doctor to get better. It all takes a long time. He is so lucky that you stick in there and try to get through to him.

Kim, as others said, try to let the professionals do what they need to and you take this time to be good to yourself and trust that Edwin will be better after this experience.

Let us know if we can be of any help to you. And tell Edwin that we understand and are hoping and praying for some powerful healing for him.

Tell us if we can somehow help.

Bob

Kim,

I echo all the sediments expressed here as well. MrEdd is indeed so lucky to have you in his life. It's wonderful that you have a good support system and that he does too.

As a survivor of SA, I've been in various hospitals for SA recovery and rehabs for alcoholism. Sometimes it's the only way to get the intensive help we need. For some, when having the memories come back or when dealing with repressed feelings, it's like replaying the life experience tape recorder in fast-forward. Sometimes when the tape is done playing out the memories, the worst of the pain and insanity of it all plays out with it and is done with, leaving room for life to resume on a more functional level.

You'll both get through this one day at a time, one moment at a time, relief will happen for you both.

jer

Kim,

Ditto to what everyone else has said. A good support system is so important. When I told my mother she just ignored what I was saying. Actually, what a family friend and psysician told me, is that my moter believed me .... she could just not handle dealing with it.

Now, I have a good support system. I have Two excelt T's ( one I see weekly and an EMDR T that I see every two weeks) I have, an attorney that is extreemly supportive. ( for the case against the Presbyterian Church) He keeps telling me, when he returns my e-mails, that this is going to be a tough case. He also says that one problem he is having is that there has never been a precident set in Wyoming. ( This sort of thing does not happen in Wyoming ..... Just like there is no hate crime in Wyoming ... Mathew Shepard proved that)

The other thing that, when he is ready, I have found is important (it may not be for everyone) is if he has a very trusted friend or freinds, I usually tell them. I usually start the conversation with something like ..... " Isn't it disgusting the way the Catholic church is dealing with all the young men that were molested?" ... or something likke that. Sorry for the Catholic church bashing but it helps tosee where the person is coming from. If they put up an argument I change the subject. If they wobble, I decide whether or not to go any further. If they come back with anger that the church is doing NOTHING. Then I say in a very calm tone, .... " well it happened to me at the Presbyterian Church.

Anyway, give Mr. Ed my best wishes for a speedy recovery.

John

Guys, thank you for your concern about Mr Edd + me, we apprecate it. I have seen Ed up till Sunday night. He started going to group theripy to just listen. I believe MrEdd went to 2 that day. Then it snowed like crazy + I could not go see him. Damn that was hard!! But I am not going to risk someone else's life just to see him + see just how he is doing. I am trusting + being tested to trust. Thank you for your notes of encouragements. :p They helped. I really hope to see MrEdd today for the snow should melt off the roads today. I will write something tomarrow if I see Ed today.

Kim
That's so encouraging, it's good to hear Ed's getting the help and LOVE he needs.

Wow, snow in Texas !! I've been working outside in a T shirt this week. But I have a nephew in P.E.I. Canada who's just had -50 ...

I hope it melts for you Kim, give our love to Ed'

Dave

When I went in yesterday to see MrEdd, he said he possibly could get out of the hospital. Ed did not know until dinnertime that they were even considering sending him home. Anyways, they even sent me out early with visiting hour for Ed to talk with the counselor. I waited till the end of the hour, then left thinking tomarrow. I arrived late to a meeting + the adults were not there. Some excuse of picking up bread. A friend distracked me. About 15-20 minutes later the adults showed up including Mr Edd. I could not believe it. They had picked up bread without the br is what they said. I love it!!! Hubby is back!!! Yet I am a little nervous that I can truly handle the stress. NO!!!! I have to trust that with all my support system that WE can handle all that stress. Thank you again for all your support. I am doing a lot better.
WITH MUCH LOVE,
Kim

Great news, I love a happy ending.

Dave