I zeroed in on this one late, after you deleted your post, but I sort of get the idea from what others are saying.
You have a lot to be angry about, and no one here will deny you that right. But your son will need a lot of support and help, so I hope you will feel able to return and participate on the site. There is a LOT of help available here.
Nobody living can ever stop me
As I go walking my freedom highway.
Nobody living can make me turn back:
This land was made for you and me. (Woody Guthrie)