So good to hear from you again.
I think you're being too hard on yourself, my friend. First of all, if you are sad and you're feeling sad then that's all you need to say. Sometimes we think that we have to be eloquent writers or speakers when all we really have to be is who we are....
Just know that if you are logging onto this web site, if you are finding some comfort and/or identifying with others, then you've taken a big step toward healing.
I, too, feel fortunate to have found this web site, and it's in sharing our stories and not feeling like I'm the only one in the world who feels he's screwed up that I have found strength and inspiration.
It would be my personal wish, Auggie, that you log on whenever you can and just let us know what's happening from time to time. No matter what you say - or how it comes out - it's what you need to be doing...and it's just fine with me.
Hang in there, man.....we're all in this together.