This site was useful to know that I'm not alone with my abuse and pain, but it's become a hindrance now.
Every time I come here for the past few weeks, all I see is weakness, and it just infuriates me. I feel all this does is set me back more and more and undoing the positive work that my therapist and I are doing together. I'm sure there's something relevant between my anger and the weakness I see, but it won't be here that I'll understand it. It'll be in my therapist's office.
I've realized these last few weeks that I have a terrible habit of burning my bridges with people that I care for, and I foolishly believe they care for me. This here is one of those times. Yes this site offers a lot of help and resources, but with the constant need to walk on eggshells and not crack a single one of them, I personally feel I cannot fully express myself here any longer, nor do I feel my posts are safe and secure anymore. (SAR knows what I'm talking about.)
Thanks to those who've been there in the early days when I was here: (Sinking) John, Larry, Trish, Tracy, Grunty (Bruce?), and the mods as well, and others I failed to mention.
"Don't give up and lose the chance to return to innocence" - Enigma, Return to Innocence