To all my friends.
I have made a decision to no longer be a part of the Admin / Moderating team here at MS. It's a decision that I've taken some time over, but now I feel ready.
My decision is NOTHING to do with way MS is run and moderated, or anything to do with future plans for MS, it's a personal decision based on the fact that I need more time to work with Survivors here in the UK.
I also feel it's time for me spend some time relaxing with my wife instead of spending hours sat glued to this screen, but to be fair she's never complained about my time spent here.
I have to say that I've enjoyed what I've done here, even when it's meant sitting here until the early hours of the morning chasing imposters and idiots around the internet, it was worth it for me because MS became a little bit safer for all of us.
It's especially worth it when I see someone having what I call a "YES !" moment as some part of their lifes jigsaw falls into place.
There have been many moments over the last few years when I have sat here crying tears of absolute joy at someones "YES !" moments.
The Admin / Mod team do make safety the number one priority here, and it's not an easy task. Many hours of hard work and long discussions go on behind the scenes, no decision is taken lightly because we understand how it feels to be a Survivor.
The Admin / Mod team are a terrific bunch of people. It's hard to imagine a more dedicated and caring crew, and I have to say that my respect for them is total. I'm going to miss working with them all.
I came to MS a long time back and discovered that I was not alone, that made a huge difference to me.
It inspired me to think about my healing in a different way, and other Survivors encouraged me to think outside of my old limitations, I learned new things that have stuck with me ever since.
And I still see that happening to others here, and that gives me so much hope and satisfaction.
I will stay at MS though and use the forums, perhaps it's time for me to return to basics?
I see MS as the BEST Survivors site in cyberspace, MS does help everyone that comes here with the aim of healing themselves, sadly some come here expecting the 'miracle cure'; but sadly we know that ain't gonna happen.
Healing from CSA is a very personal thing, the Therapists and Psychologists will all tell you that there is no 'right way' to heal, but there are common things between Survivors that sometimes only 'we' can understand, and if we try to go it alone then we risk never fully understanding all the things that are going on in our world. What we need is support and friendship from others who truly understand. Not only the victims and survivors of CSA but the partners, wives, friends and families of Survivors, they understand from a different angle, and we need to share that understanding as well.
And that's why I was prepared to dedicate my time to MS, it gave me somewhere to meet people who understood my problems, and then I wanted to share that understanding.
I'll see you all on the forums, and thanks for all your support. I couldn't have managed without it.