I just got back to CA from Mike Lew's Kirkridge weekend retreat for adult male survivors of childhood sexual abuse. I went last year and had the grand "Ah ha". I didn't have high expectations this year but it was even better. I'm still processing, I've got a lot of things to work out. I'm getting better and I'm changing. I hope that my wife will accept the different me and realize that I have to change, for me. We talked quite a bit since I've been home. Maybe it will work out, but if it doesn't, it was good while it lasted.
I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.
Kurt Vonnegut (1922-2007)