SOME TIMES MY MIND RUND AT 900 MILES AN HOUR AND I CANNOT TURN IT OFF , I FEEL LIKE MY HEAD IS GOING TO EXPLODE . I CANNOT THINK STREIGHT . SOME TIMES I THINK THAT I NEED TO GO BACK IN TO THE PSYC HOSPITAL . BUT THEY HAVE NOT FOUND A CURE YET FOR ANGER AND HATE . I HUST DONT KNOW WHERE TO TURN . HERE ITS 3 AM AND I CANNOT SLEEP AGAIN . SOME TIMES I THINK THAT I AM ABOUT TO LOOSE IT ALL . MY LIFE IS JUST COMEING APART

Mike, none of us can turn it off for you, but I remember my mind being like an explosive device.

It is not easy to deal with, but you should find some way of positively directing the anger and hate.

Running, walking, the gym, are all ways of dealing with it, by stopping your mind dwelling on this shit.

Best wishes,

ste

i dont sleep well. my mind has always raced like that, when you are all worked up inside, i guess that happens. for me, meditation, yoga and prayer help to calm me internally before i even try to sleep. what things calm you?

as r2k4 said, working out during the day helps. it makes your body tired, and can help the anger if you channel your anger into it. then something relaxing before bed can help too.

if something goes wrong for me, i have this. just had a night where i didnt sleep when i started having issues with my prostate. the worry of the tests, the fear it might be cancer, and i just couldnt sleep. it happens, but when it happens too much it can really wear you down, i know.

keep working on your anger, and try finding ways of venting it. when you heal enough that the anger starts to leave, i think you'll be fine.

I have no answer, we are all different so have different means that help us. Keep posting, keep looking, don't give up. Easier said than done.

froggy12