i love tool
there my favorite
rite now.
i went an saw them
wen they were at the
tweeter center a couple
months ago.
my sister hates them and
she hates all the music
i listen to i play it
loud an it pisses her
off heehee

all the doctrs out there
can just kiss my ass

I bought Opiate back in 92 or 93 on TAPE. Don't laugh Trev. I'll here you if you laugh.

Trev are you REALLY done with the hospital thing? Was it YOUR choice to go?

its NEVER my choice ;(

Did you................ever really try to connect with any of the staff there? Did you treat them with respect? They might make a better attempt to really help you, rather than just "do their job" if they see the witty and cynical side of your personality that we see here.

What kind of person are you when you're there? The angry/bitter/not talking type patient or the one we see here?

Try to make the best of the situation that is not totally in your control ok?

im the same there as
i am here.
this is just who
i am. im not trying
to be anything or
any 1 that im not
i nevr tried to
connect with anybody.
an im tired of things
not being in my
control

Well sometimes a different approach/attitude might improve your situation there. Will you ever have to go back?

if i try to hurt myself
or somebody else or if
i get in a rage or get
suicidal theyll try and
make me go back.

hospitals can be a pretty depressing place. it isnt like they really know or care about you as a person. you are just a case, another hapless victim that they run through the mill.

consider thier side for a moment. day in, day out, they have people coming past them, troubled people. many there are suicidal, some may even do it at some point. even here, you can see how hard it is when someone becomes stuck. if you try too hard, and give too much, and that person ends up hurting themselves or someone else, you lose part of yourself. reaching out to hurting people comes at a risk. there is always the chance you will be hurt in the end. all it takes is once of that, and people in the hospital learn to quickly detach from it. they learn to treat you as just another patient. they remove your humanity for thier own protection. i wish that wasnt the case, but it is. you have to place yourself outside of their suffering, or thier suffering will pull you under too.

its kinda hard to think
about their side when i
dont even wanna be there in the
1st place. so im forced to be
there then they treat me like
shit? fuck them and fuck that.
u know one time i was there an
i was freaking out cuz they had
me restrained but they didnt GET
that being restrained was making
me freak out u know? all they
had to do was take them off
an i would of calmed down. so it
took like an hour and having
fucking flashbacks till my sistr
got there and told them