At the time of your abuse how many of you knew it was wrong ?
My abuse began when i was 6 and lasted for almost a decade so no, I didnt realize it at the time, but later I did.
At the time of your abuse was there physical or emotional abuse ?
I cant say that I was ever beaten, but manipulated into doing what they (my parents) desired.
Yes, I was showered with gifts and affection when I complied and learned very young that if I did what was expected I would be treated accordingly
What other sexual things were happening around you ?
I tend to think that as a result of the abuse I was more "aware" of sexual things going on around me, between my parents, my siblings, and even what I saw on television, inuendo was a part of life.
How many times do you think it happened ? How many years did this go on for ?
I have no idea how many times it happened over the course of the abuse from age 6 until I was age 14.
No, not until recently
Did you want it to stop ?
When I was small I didnt even realize that was an option. as I got older yes.
We're there fantasys you had during the abuse?
Did u bury it or was it something that always bothered you ?
I buried it for decades, only recently, following a breakdown at my job did I begin to deal with it.
Did it change your ways on how you view relationships and sex ?
I can honestly say that it has effected everything, from relationships to sex with my wife. Every interaction with someone else is questioned, every motive, every gesture.