Hi ScardyCat, welcome to MS
How many times I heard that name growing up! I didn't understand a lot of what was going on at the time, but I knew that wasn't a name to be cherished.
By joining in with other survivors you've made another courageous step in the long journey of healing and recovery. And proves once again the name is not who are. A father should nurture, protect and love his child, and I'm sorry that you were left to deal with the weird freakish emotional crap that his actions caused.
I hope you find, as I have, You are not alone in dealing with the past, and that you will soon be comfortable enough to post and contribute more.
Never, never, never, never give up....Winston Churchill