i know this will find you well after the immediate cal for help regarding your meeting, but i hope it went well enough. there have been times when i was that way. i was just remembering once a long time ago when i totally flipped in the classroom. for an academic, that is baaad news
. fortunately, it was with one who understood and i was able to salvage it, but that was the only time i ever flipped in that kind of situation. at the time i thought it was performance anxiety but in retrospect it was far, far more. when we have those debilitating moments it is so frustrating and embarrasing, even if we are able to pull it off cool as a cucumber, we know. the only thing we have going for us is the knowledge that we have been there before and survived. cold comfort, i know, bro. pm me if i can help, just letting you know i am here for you.