I just want a normal fucking life and girlfriend.
I've learned to abandon my pursuit of a "normal" life. What does that really mean anyway? Instead, I am pursuing a life of growth, healing and service to others. And yeah, sometimes I feel lonely, depressed, angry. But sometimes I feel happy, peaceful, satisfied.
I think what you are saying is that you are not happy with your life as it currently stands. Have you thought about what kind of life would
make you happy? Nothing wrong with wanting a girlfriend, but think about what you want in a woman, what you want in a relationship, a career, a spiritual life. Are you in counseling? If not, consider it.
This society is preoccupied with sex, and many of us are stuck with a distorted sexuality. We can't "fit in" with other guys, gay or straight. So why sweat it? I'll just be who I am, and try to do the next right thing every day.
Hey how about we call ourselves "infinitesexual"?
Seems I've got to have a change of scene
Every night I have the strangest dreams
Imprisoned by the way it could have been
Left here on my own or so it seems
I've got to leave before I start to screamJoe Cocker