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#467603 - 07/14/14 09:21 PM Urges
Nate Offline
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Registered: 04/30/07
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Loc: Philadelphia, PA
Hi. I'm 31 and recently engaged to a wonderful man. We are soon moving to a state where we can marry and both super excited about it. At the same time, I feel that lately my sexuality has felt dark. It was actually just recently that I made the connection with this being an anniversary of my rape - it was 7 years ago. How it impacts me now is that I get almost uncontrollably horny. It's a feeling that isn't satisfied though as much sex as we may have. I'm not sure what to do, or how to overcome it. Sometimes this leads me to think of exploring various sexual fetishes. Anyone else experience this?
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#467618 - 07/15/14 08:27 AM Re: Urges [Re: Nate]
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Registered: 03/20/13
Posts: 21
Loc: NJ, USA
Nate,

My sex drive has been high ever since I was sexually assaulted roughly 2 years ago, which is especially odd because for a long time before the assault I actually thought I was borderline asexual (albeit homoromantic). It was kind of jarring how much I wanted to have sex after. I also became addicted to porn for a few months when I previously had absolutely no interest in porn whatsoever.

I think in my situation, it's almost like I have an average sex drive now so I never really did anything to correct it. With the exception that I did force myself to quit looking at porn.

If the sexual fetishes are healthy and your partner is open to them, then maybe it wouldn't be bad to explore them together. If they're not healthy and they seem to be harmful or dangerous in some way, then maybe that's something to discuss with a therapist who may be able to help resolve those desires. I know therapy helped me a lot in other ways. Maybe with the right therapist, you can resolve problematic thoughts or inclinations if you have them.

Best,
Ren


Edited by Tarobuns108 (07/15/14 05:25 PM)
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#467648 - 07/15/14 07:16 PM Re: Urges [Re: Nate]
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Registered: 10/09/13
Posts: 820
Loc: St. Croix, USVI
Hi Nate,

Sexual abuse has very long term effects. If you haven't seen a therapist before, talking to a competent therapist specializing in sexual abuse with men might be some of the best insurance for you going forward. The hidden effects of my sexual abuse are only getting healed now in my 60's. I hope you are able to preempt any long term effects of your abuse.

Don
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#467726 - 07/17/14 05:36 PM Re: Urges [Re: Nate]
Nate Offline
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Hi Guys:

Thanks for your response. I think you're right - counseling is what I need. I'm in transition moving to a new city, so hopefully once I get there I can find a counselor in the next couple of months. I'm glad you both have had positive experiences. I've tried counselors before, but they haven't been the right fit for me. Now that I'll be out of school and have income I'll be able to afford to find someone who specializes and has experience with men who have been sexually abused.

It's crazy how long the effects last - I was thinking I was over it, but I know we are never really over it... it's traumatic and leaves a scar amongst other things...
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#467729 - 07/17/14 06:16 PM Re: Urges [Re: Nate]
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Best of Luck, Nate. Sounds like a good plan. Don
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#467730 - 07/17/14 06:20 PM Re: Urges [Re: Nate]
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Registered: 03/20/13
Posts: 21
Loc: NJ, USA
If you need help finding a therapist in Philly, let me know. I am friends with a social worker who might have recommendations.

Best,
Ren
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#467811 - 07/20/14 12:18 PM Re: Urges [Re: Nate]
Nate Offline
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Yes that would be helpful Taro!
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#467877 - 07/22/14 07:56 PM Re: Urges [Re: Nate]
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Registered: 04/02/07
Posts: 15
Loc: New York
I struggle with being overwhelming sexual as well. I honestly don't know if its abuse related or not except for the fact that I became that way when I was about 6 years old. I started masturbating very, very often at that age and I only stopped pretty recently because I'm in a relationship with someone who is very accommodating. I sometimes feel very guilty about it because I think it must be very diffficult to deal with even though she tells me she doesn't mind. Would she even tell me if it bothered her, knowing that it would probably hurt me if she did? I hope she would tell me the truth but honestly I don't know.

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#467924 - 07/23/14 10:41 PM Re: Urges [Re: Nate]
Nate Offline
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somaticfilter:

I hear ya - I've wondered the same thing if my high sex drive bothers my partner or not. I've wondered the same thing. Sometimes I feel like I can't control it.
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"Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed."

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#468079 - 07/27/14 07:55 PM Re: Urges [Re: somaticfilter]
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Registered: 03/31/12
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Loc: New York
somaticfilter:
I would tell you silly


Edited by Nvolpicelli (07/27/14 07:56 PM)
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