I'm feeling a great deal better today, in great part due to the encouragement and support of all you guys who have cared enough to take the time to read my post and offer your support, suggestions, or words of wisdom. As for the therapist, she's long gone and has been replaced by a far more competent one...ME. We all have the answers to our pain within ourselves. Regardless of our level of education, there is a part of the human spirit where answers to all our questions lie hidden. A good therapist (and there are some) helps us to tap into that part where the answers lie. They do not give advice or tell us what we "ought" to do. They listen, and they help us find the path that is already there, hidden under the pain and feelings of worthlessness. I've never met a man who did not carry within himself a great treasure, no matter how low an opinion of himself he may hold. I've seen much of that treasure in just the past few days. I am sure many of you regard yours treasures as little more than a lump of coal, but remember, coal under extreme pressure becomes a diamond!
Thank you all again for your responses. I'm not "healed", just better. I will never truly be whole, nor, I suspect, will most of you. There will always be a hole within my spirit where something else might have grown. It is my duty to fill that hole with the love and compassion that can often only come from having been where many have never gone. I appreciate your help in cultivating that inner garden.