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#466129 - 06/02/14 08:25 PM Lost.
teba Offline

Registered: 04/17/14
Posts: 12
Hello everyone.

I'm sorry if this is in the wrong subforum.

Anyway, I'm tired, and feeling quite lonely and empty, as usual. I have the urges to cut. I've been a cutter for 12 years now, I think. I'm sad. It's like my emptiness has no end, no bottom, like it eats and swallows everything. Like a black hole. I suffer from depression, OCD, anxiety and ADHD. I've been dealing with Eating Disorders for 14 years too. All I can feel for myself and all I am is hatred, contempt, anger, shame, loathing, etcetera.

I don't know what to do. I'm so fucking sad, empty, alone and bored I could fucking stab myself. I want to cut. I want to make myself throw up. I want to hurt myself. I want to cry. I don't know what to do. I'm fucking lost. I want to scream. I want to hurt myself.

I'm sorry if I'm bothering or annoying anyone; I just needed to express myself, and since I have no one to listen, I though I'd post here. I'm sorry.

Edited by teba (06/03/14 05:16 AM)

#466139 - 06/02/14 10:50 PM Re: Lost. [Re: teba]
kcinohio Offline

Registered: 06/06/12
Posts: 464
Loc: Ohio
Hey Teba,

Sorry you are hurting so much today. though I didn't cut, did have my challenges for self-injury for a while. KInd of put those feelings into a poem, Flame on, on MS here -

Know how hard it is to get through, but I can vouch for things being better on the other side of it.


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