your avatar and screen name take me back to my youth.
you are certainly NOT alone.
you can be as connected and engaged here as you want to be. take it easy at first - as it can be overwhelming.
but join in as you feel able and know that you will be welcomed, accepted and respected.
i hope you will quickly feel at home here and benefit from the resources and relationships here.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho